Yes. it’s true. I have started a blog before. 52 posts and less than one year later, I failed at keeping a a blog up and stopped.

Like most 1st generation Chinese, I am scared of failure. I am afraid of making mistakes.

Then again, Chinese or not, isn’t everyone?

So, I was really hesitant to start a new blog. I asked myself over and over, would I be able to keep it up? Would I be able to keep it interesting for my readers and for myself? Would I be able to… not fail again?

When I finally decided to start this blog this time around… I told myself, this time, it has to be different. This time…

…I’ll remember to write for myself.

I realize that at the end of the day, the only way I’m going to not fail at this is to do it because I want to. Not because I have to post once a week or whatever, but because I want to post as often as I can. Not because I need to showcase my weddings for the clients I love or my potential clients, but because I want to share the amazing photos from the gorgeous weddings with everyone. Not because I think social media or blogging is the right thing to do for my business, but because I want to keep a record, a journal of all that is unfolding in my life and so that when I look back at this one day, I’ll be amazed at what I have accomplished and the journey I’ve taken.

I have let too many opportunities to post slip by. There are times when I decided to not post cuz I can’t get the photos to display just right. There are times when I delayed posting cuz I didn’t want my posts go out of order. There are times when I wasn’t quite ready to share that something personal so I just didn’t write all together…

No more. No more excuses.

Like most 1st generation Chinese, I was taught to be humble. I was taught that, I can always do better.

I’m going to do better this time around.